I once was lost

how dumb is it to foolishly hang on to a fancy which you know will never work out?

i awoke at 3am today with some memories of a rather spooky dream.

there we were, outside the council room in the usual area, talking. weiyi and i were feeling rather tired we lay on each other, back-to-back. i guess we were really sleepy since when i stood up and all i was really lethargic and slow and immobile.

(still in school) while walking around the concourse, i suddenly felt this extremely sharp pain at the side of my chest and died. well, at least i thought i did. apparently the dream continued and i was well alive. fastforward a bit, and i’m walking back to the concourse, and i see weiyi’s body where i thought i’d died. then he gets up, apparently fine.

from what i vaguely remember from the dream, somehow our hearts (okay this is gonna sound weird) had gotten linked while lying against each other… and apparently i was the one in charge. so we walked as a unit around school? and later when he woke up it caused great physical pain since it was like tearing out his part of the heart from the combined thing.

actually come to think of it it’s a rather dumb dream, dunno why i’m recording it. except that i thought it was rather cool at that time. me being in charge of someone else’s body, i mean. haha. ooops.

i was feeling somewhat stressed remembering that i have chinese ao exam later today, and then i immersed myself in music. one particular song, actually, the title of which should show up below. just closed my eyes and listened to it streaming in from all sides.

go get it, it’s really nice.

while watching tv, i reflected upon the age-old question.

if you like your friend’s boyfriend/girlfriend (henceforth i shall assume ‘girlfriend’ since i’m a guy), should you try to let her know and so on?

on the one hand, objectively speaking, if she’s happier with you than with him, why not? on the other, personally, i don’t think many people really would like to hurt their friends in that way.

but i suppose such a question cannot really be approached until such a situation actually arises. oh well.

this may just be the year in my life that i’ve used the most chinese. which may be a good thing, actually, but it’s also torturous at times.